WhEN? alreaDY?

Sometime you just won't realize when it happen or how it happen until it already happen.... Let me just say that since after this line I'll be typing with my slim consciousness and whatever blurt out right here are from what I've been through in the past 24 hours.... and I'll be typing it without looking at it...
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and dammn the part that I quoted was what I typed.... and now it's 4 hours later in 1pm... hmmm... where were my thoughts when I started this note, oh ya, life... Sometimes I just find it funnily cruel, interestingly boring... The funny thing that's happening right now is that a friend of mine is trying his best to persuade me to tackle/woo/court (whatever you want to call the action of one guy openly admit his affection towards another girl) not long ago, and he succeeded, or should I say, even without him, I'm planning to do so anyway, yes I like her even before he push it, just that I hate to admit it...

then come the cruel part... I am a man with no game, some call this kind of guys the lame man, in general, I don't know what to say when we're together, I don't know how to probe further when I have a chance to be with her, I don't knonw anything about starting up a relationship, yes, I'm nervous. Come to think of it, this isn't the first time I've met someone I like, definitely not, and times after times, I failed to do what I should do, I don't know what are the weapons that is under my aresenal. Aside from that, I was a sales person, (still is I guess, since we never stop selling ideas, time or skills) I'm taught/experienced to tell what one think through their replies and body language, from her's it's telling me that she wanted some attention, mine not included, or so I think, some said it's a lot easier to let you heart lead the way, I did that, broke two hearts in the end, so no, I'm gonna be logical and that always fails me.

It's funny to write something hoping that someone sees it, and cruel to know that if that someone sees it it's gonna make the matter worse, it's always interesting to manupulate words and bring out the meaning from another angle, much like a photographer I guess but on a much cheaper scale, and it get boring when your vocabulary is limited and not much people can really understand what you're writting.

And isn't it ironic...don't you think
A little too ironic...and, yeah, I really do think...

Ironic - ALANIS MORISSETTE